:breath: without content:
if I am a process
criteria of being do not belong to me
I am only the deed of accepting
if to accept is not to make my own of
if belonging's not the purpose
to accept can mean to consent
to consent to the deed of giving
I consent to the deed of giving
but I cannot feel thanks
I can be the deed of thanking
if thanks is the purpose of giving
if I am a process
I cannot be for myself
purpose or reason
I cannot
either want or not want to be
the purpose and reason
if I am a process
I cannot want or be
I cannot not want or not be
:breath which saved my life:
I.
I will not touch
even with a single thought
I cannot stop
I can only remain
I will sever connections
I will let
continue
without me/I am other
only in comparison
I am letting go
I remain other
I am letting
change me
to let
in purest movement
in thoughts
which do not touch me
I remain
II
if we're one
I can deny
myself
and you'll remain
if we're one
I can deny you
as myself
and you'll remain
:enough not to breathe in:
I wait for
space:
time between breathing in and out
time before death: now
at the limit of physical effort
silent
I wait in the void
together: now
before death
I wait without breath
beyond every limit to hear
infinite space:
derangement
:regular breathing exercise:
regular violation of regularity
regular repetition of movement
leads to enlargement of muscle fibres
its regular violation
leads to even greater enlargement of muscle fibres
transfer of particles
regular breath
regular intake of nourishment
regular intake of liquids
and their regular elimination
regular
decay/transfer of particles to another grouping
regular
anguish
violates
the heart's beating
circulation
blood pressure
digestion
activity of veins
tear ducts
taste buds
regular breath
anguish is the anticipation of decay
I measure by breath
silence is an immeasureable value
if it is what we call
absence
of sounds and pictures
presence
prefiguration/prelude without end
silence need not even have a concept
nameless it would be
the ideal object
of quest
the goal
sigh/sob
silence could
be a way out of solitude
the air escapes in utterance
living
space event
cannot be
changed enlarged
by other
naming
of the unnamed
breaths are shallower
breathe upon me
I shall not fly
I shall reply
it breathes life into me
I am the word by which it names me
I do not exist without
its naming me
any word may
become
a naming of me
I become the word's reflection
I become the word
I am
the result of namings of me
I do not want to name people
such as they seem to me to be
because I name myself in their situations
I name them with the namings of myself
they become
the result of namings of me
they become me
I become them
one day I shall stop breathing
a need to go beyond the limit
of presence
logic
power to comprehend
the ever-present longing
for complete exhaustion
in the conflict
grows
in parallel
directly in proportion
ration of strength
needed for survival
which I need not bear witness to
only be part of
to survive conflict
mutancy of substance
to emerge in another form
Translated by John Minahane